I was broken

I wanted validation

I wanted you to see me

I wanted to be your object of desire

I needed to know that

I needed to know that I am desired

Wanted 

Needed 

Loved

and for a brief moment in time

I thought I found it

In the arms of false intimacy

you saw that

you took advantage

And you broke me

In that space

In that privacy

In that moment of intimacy

you took away my pride 

You said: “but don’t you do this with everyone?” 

I gave you the most intimate parts of me

At what price though?

So you can feel like a man? 

It took me a few days to understand what happened

And it tore me apart

To think

Am I that desperate

Am I that lonely 

Am I that stupid 

I believed in you

And I was wrong for doing that

You really did break me

You were the initiator, the predator

And I was desperate